“Greta Who?”

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The year is ending and to most people’s manner of thinking, so is the decade. (Yes, I know that the third decade of this century begins in 2021, but all logic aside, that is not how most human beings view the calendar, and the calendar is a human construct after all, so there we are.)

We walked for nearly three hours the other day, gathering a great many tiny pieces of plastic, mostly foam this week. It takes a lot of crushed bits of plastic the size of my thumbnail to add up to twenty pounds in a month. Collecting trash is an ongoing goal. More happened and will happen in the coming year.  Continue reading

GOOD FENCES…

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You go girl! A friend just sent this to me. Isn’t it wonderful! This must have been originally published by a knitting or UK journal. No mainstream American newspaper or magazine would mention the 23 stitch repeat.


 

I was right about the source. It seems to track back to a Scottish blog post from 2012. This is the source of the photographs and excerpted text. KDD and Co. (Kate Davies Designs) sells yarns, patterns, knitting kits. I have actually purchased things from them: little wooden animals meant to be wound with yarn. The striped Datham pullover is a stunner, and the baffies (Scottish house slipper) kit is decidedly tempting—I ordered it.

LATKES

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The last sweet potato latke, with cranberry sauce on a Rainbow Gate plate.

We have family coming for dinner next week, and I am test-driving family recipes and trying out a couple of new things. I hope to serve Waldorf salad (without nuts or brown sugar), cold poached salmon with sauces no one is allergic to, the mushroom-and-wild-rice casserole (without flour or butter or cream), Brussel’s sprouts, and “the chocolate thing” I used always to make for my college classes (without dairy or refined sugars or nuts). And latkes for Sunday breakfast.

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CLEARING AWAY

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No, water is not supposed to be running down these stairs in “Sally’s Alley”. This is just up the beach beside the massive concrete bulkhead that used to contain a swimming pool. Gary calls this a “water feature” suggesting we have seen too many British gardening shows.

Heavy rain. Hard blow. High tides. The holidays. And knitting.

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HAPPY HOLIDAY

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from A New Zealand Prayer Book:

“It is night after a long day. What has been done has been done; what has not been done has not been done; let it be.”

Find time to not do a thing but notice.


Last evening my husband and I watched The West Wing episode, “In Excelsis Deo.” I showed it each year to my students. (Though I struggled to show it this past December because the internet rarely worked in the college building and the projector was often down.) I would hand out a page identifying the characters and I used to pause the episode several times to provide information: The story of the gay teenager beaten to death was true, homelessness is disproportionately high among veterans of every war, and the man threatening to out Leo is shut down by members of his own party. In those days there were a lot of Republicans who also had moral standards, who were determined to “act like it.”

I miss that. If you have never watched the series, I urge you to find it on Netflix. It is a reminder of how governing is supposed to work.

CLOTHES HORSE

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The “Flamingo” quilt before being cropped and the edges bound. The white showing around the edges is cotton batting; the red showing on the very outside beyond the batting is the backing.) My quilts generally begin with a signature fabric that drives the design. In this case, I was captivated by an Indonesian batik in a Japanese plum-blossom pattern, imported and sewn in the United States. This is one of the pieces that will go into a local show in December 2020. (Assuming they allow me to bring such large works.)

Gary sewed a button on the other day. A few months ago I made repairs to quilts I’d sewn for our older son—quilts that are decades old and have been through the wash too many times. I recall my dad talking about learning to darn socks in the Army. I know, in theory, how to darn socks and I even have a favorite pair of wool socks that need darning. I also have a tweedy charcoal/brown silk noil sweater that I bought at Banana Republic that needs some attention under the right arm where the stitching has come undone. It was originally intended for one of the boys—it’s a man’s sweater—but none of them wanted it. I took it for myself and despite the label that says “dry clean only” have been machine washing it in cold water and hanging to dry for over twenty years. It will take me a few minutes to repair.

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BREAK A LEG

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Some of this story is fiction, but it doesn’t matter which parts because that’s not the point.

When you are seventeen, riding a borrowed bicycle, you are stuck by a car and suffer what they used to call a compound fracture. You could search online for what they call that kind of break today.

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MEDIA MOB

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My husband and I love films and we have seen a great many of them. We avoid the bad ones, when we are aware they are going to be bad. Lately, “bad” has become such a relative term that even Rotten Tomatoes seems unable to warn us away from films we dislike. We wasted over $30 seeing Knives Out (or Up or In or whatever). The overpriced popcorn and Milk Duds were the best part. I hasten to assure you that everyone else in the theater seemed to love the film. They laughed a great deal more than we did, did not seem to mind Craig’s silly accent or the pathetic attempts at political pandering or the way the main character (vomiting on cue—that was only funny once and not the first time) was used as a cliché victim. The predictable plot twists even seemed to surprise people. Really? If you loved the newest version of Murder on the Orient Express, you will find a familiar scenario here. This is the cartoon version where everyone but the ingenue is despicable. If you thought that mustache on Branagh was ridiculous, well, consider yourself warned.

On the other hand, we had relatively low expectations for The Good Liar, the overall twist was expected, but, you know, Helen Mirren. That one was fun.

In the mean time, the single best film entertainment we’ve enjoyed recently has been on Netflix. Midnight Diner: Tokyo Stories has two seasons (2016 and 2019), just twenty 28-minute episodes, and some are deeply touching and some are spectacular. A couple have been flat out sad, but mostly they are something more subtle. Newsweek declares it “the best show no one is watching.” As we near the end of the second season, we’re dolling them out one at a time to make them last. We never skip the opening sequence . . . and apparently others feel the same way about “Omiede.”

There have been many more shots and films we enjoyed this year. Gary credits me with finding Midnight Diner, and promising is was short and we could turn it off if we didn’t like it. He says it’s on the level with Detectorists, which is his all-time favorite. Its funny and dear to us both.

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Joan Baez sings “Diamonds and Rust.”

BRING BACK OUR MIGHTY DREAM

Let America Be America Again

Langston Hughes  (1902-1967)

Let America be America again.
Let it be the dream it used to be.
Let it be the pioneer on the plain
Seeking a home where he himself is free.

(America never was America to me.)

Let America be the dream the dreamers dreamed—
Let it be that great strong land of love
Where never kings connive nor tyrants scheme
That any man be crushed by one above.

(It never was America to me.)

O, let my land be a land where Liberty
Is crowned with no false patriotic wreath,
But opportunity is real, and life is free,
Equality is in the air we breathe.

(There’s never been equality for me,
Nor freedom in this “homeland of the free.”)

Say, who are you that mumbles in the dark?
And who are you that draws your veil across the stars?

I am the poor white, fooled and pushed apart,
I am the Negro bearing slavery’s scars.
I am the red man driven from the land,
I am the immigrant clutching the hope I seek—
And finding only the same old stupid plan
Of dog eat dog, of mighty crush the weak.

I am the young man, full of strength and hope,
Tangled in that ancient endless chain
Of profit, power, gain, of grab the land!
Of grab the gold! Of grab the ways of satisfying need!
Of work the men! Of take the pay!
Of owning everything for one’s own greed!

I am the farmer, bondsman to the soil.
I am the worker sold to the machine.
I am the Negro, servant to you all.
I am the people, humble, hungry, mean—
Hungry yet today despite the dream.
Beaten yet today—O, Pioneers!
I am the man who never got ahead,
The poorest worker bartered through the years.

Yet I’m the one who dreamt our basic dream
In the Old World while still a serf of kings,
Who dreamt a dream so strong, so brave, so true,
That even yet its mighty daring sings
In every brick and stone, in every furrow turned
That’s made America the land it has become.
O, I’m the man who sailed those early seas
In search of what I meant to be my home—
For I’m the one who left dark Ireland’s shore,
And Poland’s plain, and England’s grassy lea,
And torn from Black Africa’s strand I came
To build a “homeland of the free.”

The free?

Who said the free? Not me?
Surely not me? The millions on relief today?
The millions shot down when we strike?
The millions who have nothing for our pay?
For all the dreams we’ve dreamed
And all the songs we’ve sung
And all the hopes we’ve held
And all the flags we’ve hung,
The millions who have nothing for our pay—
Except the dream that’s almost dead today.

O, let America be America again—
The land that never has been yet—
And yet must be—the land where every man is free.
The land that’s mine—the poor man’s, Indian’s, Negro’s, ME—
Who made America,
Whose sweat and blood, whose faith and pain,
Whose hand at the foundry, whose plow in the rain,
Must bring back our mighty dream again.

Sure, call me any ugly name you choose—
The steel of freedom does not stain.
From those who live like leeches on the people’s lives,
We must take back our land again,
America!

O, yes,
I say it plain,
America never was America to me,
And yet I swear this oath—
America will be!

Out of the rack and ruin of our gangster death,
The rape and rot of graft, and stealth, and lies,
We, the people, must redeem
The land, the mines, the plants, the rivers.
The mountains and the endless plain—
All, all the stretch of these great green states—
And make America again!

 

[and every woman too . . . originally published in the July 1936 issue of Esquire]

 

 

WILD PLACES

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When I was in high school the last of my grandparents died. And then in my twenties so had all the step parents—a lot of divorce in my family. My maternal grandfather’s third wife had taken a fancy to me and her second husband was fond of Gary. I’ve written about this before. It’s how we came to live in Oregon and raise a family here.

All of that happened together. We had gone back and forth about having children, but a key was wild spaces. My husband grew up in rural Washington and Arizona. Most of my childhood was in the growing suburbs north of Seattle. There were still cows at the end of the road, goats over the hill, and a small barn with palomino horses just a couple of blocks away. Best of all were the remains of second and third growth Douglas firs. The stumps of massive old growth cut down in the late nineteenth or early twentieth centuries were so old they crumbled rust red—I could dig right into them with my hands. Hidden away were ponds and swampy places. I watched frogs swim underwater and admired the water skippers on top. I tripped over the native blackberry vines, tore bracken from the earth and heaved it as javelins, put foxglove blossoms on my fingertips, and ate the sulphurous yellow blossoms of Oregon grape in the spring and the tart berries later in summer. My mother had no idea where I was most of the time. I brought home pollywogs and splinters. I came home filthy.

Gary had a similarly unrestrained childhood in the desert but also rattlesnakes and scorpions. I wrote my MFA thesis based on his childhood stories. Most of what I wrote was entirely made up, but once in a while, Gary would look up from reading one of my stories: “Did I tell you this? I’m sure I never told you this.”

I got it right.

Having children in the city, even in a house with cedar trees in the front yard and dogwood in the back, and just a few blocks from the zoo . . . that would never do.

Raising children at the beach felt possible. My mother would later declare the move to Oregon as a reason for having children “stupid.” It felt only right to me.

I hope my sons have their own stories of wilderness and sand, wetsuits and wild waves. Jellyfish and sand dollars, castles and glorious sunsets.

Overpopulation worried me even when I was still in grade school. I’m sure I have written about that before too. The world is too crowded these days and all the places I played growing up are paved over, fenced, and tame. Wild places are few and far between today. I just read that the Earth is predicted to have 10 billion people by 2050. That’s four times the population on Earth in the year I was born. Our sons and their wives and our grandchildren will live to see that coming crowded world. I probably will not.

May there be something left of wilderness for my great great grandchildren to enjoy. May they watch water skippers on the surface of ponds, frogs beneath the surface. Forest and water hidden away. May they know monstrous trees and places silent, still, and out of control.