TIME & TIDE

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Three of the local whimbrels. Eight have been out in front of the house for the past few days. A loose dog chased them off but the returned soon enough. They are after sand crabs, I think.

“Time and Tide wait for no man” is how the saying goes. It is a recommendation against procrastination and as I am reading Patrick O’Brian’s naval novels (for the third time) I understand the reference. However . . .

We waited for the tide to turn so that we might have our walk. It was past dawn, though if the sky were clear we would not see the sun for at least two hours. Out we went a half hour past full but the stretch of rocks were were most interested in searching were awash and we often had to run up shore to avoid getting wet.

There were fourteen whimbrels further note on the shore, and when we returned home there were four plucking sand crabs from the wet sand.

We saw no one, only the tracks of one earlier walker, and perhaps that person went out last night. Their prints vanished in the waves.

We found the ocean and we gathered and we were fortunate to be together.

This evening we watched “Shelter in Poems” from the Academy of American Poets. You might find it here: https://www.crowdcast.io/e/shelterinpoems

After a false start with no sound, the poems start at about ten minutes and forty seconds in. I would like to say that if you can listen to Merwin’s “Thank You” without tears you are not quite human, but that sounds like a dare to some people. I will say that I taught many of these poems, I was grateful to hear them and to discover others that will carry me on.

TWO DEER

IMG_5799A few days ago Gary was out on the road when he saw the first deer. He backed up against the garage door while she passed. He felt sure there was another. He didn’t want to spot them, though they had passed him before—running straight past as if he were not there.

There have been two does in the neighborhood so he was halfway expecting to see the other one come along.

 

And then it did.

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She seems to be moving along just fine. 

The second smaller one came trotting by and Gary thought it might be lame, seeing some small hitch in her movement, and wondered if it was the one we’d seen in the surf a while back. The pair is known. We often see their tracks in the sand heading north. Last Sunday we walked two miles north to Arcadia Beach and followed their tracks most of that distance.

 

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The top half is nearly clear and colorless. The bottom is basalt, I think.

In the mean time, we’ve had long walks and found sea glass and agates. This one is milky quartz still attached to matrix. Each of us has found these on occasion and labeled them “teeth.”

I think today might be a day to ignore the news. Neither of us slept well last night, and we need a break. Since we do not drive anywhere except to pick up mail and groceries and drop off recyclables (no mail delivery or recycling pick-up in our community) and we are trying not to order from Amazon, we’ve saved some money. But Gary ordered a CD box set yesterday, and that might mean I can order a couple of pieces of kimono silk on Ebay.

I have a couple in mind. I go visit the silks sometimes.

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The horsetails are coming up too. I started seeds for squash, green onions, kale, and tomatoes.

The middle garden Gary has been working on is looking beautiful. The daffodils are done, but my irises are budding, the daphne is still scenting the air, and the rugosa roses look like they are happy. In the “front” yard facing the ocean, we have done nothing, but volunteers are making a show with lamb’s ears, snow-in-summer, and violas.

I am weaving a new warp called “Marigold.” The second shawl is nearly done. I might take a break before weaving the last one with more yellow. I feel like sewing.

In preparation for that next quilt project, I have pre-washed vintage batik and block printed fabric from a favorite store in Portland, which is filling online orders. Cargo has marvelous, odd and wonderful things and they are good people. Calli wrote us a note and urged me to send photos of the quilt I make from the fabric she sent out the other day. I will certainly do that!

I am also taking a break, of sorts, from creative nonfiction and fiction writing beyond this blog. All my submissions are done, I have only a Brevity blog post coming up in a couple of weeks. I want to debrief about “Butterfly Fontanelle” and then maybe I will post a couple of off-the-edge short stories that need homing. I have one particular short story that means a lot to me. I often receive personal rejections in response to this one, but always rejection (close to 70!) every time. Editors have suggested revisions, but have not reached consensus about what is not working. (Tipped my hand too late or too early?) I’ve revised it dozens of times and stopped counting drafts after thirty-eight. Maybe a reader here can tell me what’s wrong with it. I’d like to get it right.

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REVISE

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Part of an early quilt top before going out for quilting. Watermelon Sliced.

written yesterday: I should be weaving just now, and I have fabric pulled for a quilt of ordinary cotton, other block-printed fabric waiting for my attention, and an impressive stash of batik cotton. If I put my mind to it, I could have a couple of quilt tops done before summer. I could do three. A month and a half of steady work.

The catch, of course, is actually completing the work.

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ARCHITECTURE + CHOCOLATE

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My dad used to tell a story about his first job at a California aircraft company. The new head offices had a problem. The roof leaked on the President’s desk and the famous architect who designed the structure refused to address the problem. “It’s a work of art,” he is supposed to have said. The CEO tore the entire building down.

I was reminded of this while reading an article in The Washington Post about how office layouts might change to ensure distancing and a healthier work environment.

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A student took a photo of me into Hagia Sophia so I could say I’d been there.

Gustav Pundt was among my favorite professors at the University of Washington. Hermann Johannes Gustav Pundt (28 August 1928 – 15 September 2000) was a leading architectural historian and Professor in the University of Washington Department of Architecture. I took his architecture history series in 1971, I think, and he introduced me to such wonders as Hagia Sophia (in Istanbul, Turkey), which is among the beautiful buildings in the world. His photographs of the interior, taken at a time when it was forbidden to take such photos, completely captured my imagination. Light flooded from a circle of windows at the base of the main dome. Magic. I have wanted to visit ever since. I really did love the guy for that.

As a student himself, Pundt participated in the restoration of Frank Lloyd Wright’s Robie House (1909, above) in Chicago, a beautiful building in the Arts and Crafts style, showing the influence of his Mentor, Louis Sullivan (the “father of skyscrapers”, but also a designer who appreciated detail). True, the Robie House was designed to have no blinds or curtains on any room, the leaded patterns dividing the glass was intended to ensure privacy. How did that work for the occupants? You decide. 

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Windows in the Robie House. Most of the window is clear with only small bits of colored glass.

I was not a fan of the architect. The Johnson Wax Headquarters (1936) was a nightmare to my way of thinking: too many specialized brick forms (over a hundred molds which looked less innovative than inefficient to my 19-year-old eye), the glass tower continuously leaked (this was later corrected by the Johnson Wax company’s innovations, not Wright’s), Wright’s special three-legged chairs fell over, and it included the dehumanizing “open office” plan he’d used in an earlier office building.

The Larkin Administration Building (1906) is touted as the “first modern office” with entire floors left wide open for secretarial pools. If you have seen The Apartment with Shirley McLaine and Jack Lemmon, the open space where Lemmon is working at the beginning of the film is Wright’s fault. This “regimented approach, where workers sat in lines of desks with managers in offices surrounding them”—what fun. Today it’s blamed for the spread of colds and other viruses in offices. How to prevent the spread of covid19 in such wide open spaces?

The saddest part of this might be that I know all this because Pundt told his students all about Wright, warts and all. He loved the guy whose architecture placed function below innovation. So I did not agree about Wright. I want to have my cake and eat it. Give me a beautiful building that is also a pleasure to live and work in.

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Wright proved that his beautiful reverse “lily pad” columns could support weight. He did not prove that people enjoyed working in what he envisioned would resemble a “factory floor.”

Don’t even get me started on Falling Water, with the dysfunctional stairs to the water and unremitting damp (again, a detail thanks to his admirer—it was an unliveable house). Beautiful site and stonework, but, like so many of Wright’s designs, it fails its primary purpose. It’s a showcase, not a functional building. The Solomon R. Guggenheim Museum is showy too and notable for forcing visitors to look at art from a slanted floor. Yeah, I’m sure it looked spacey and futuristic in 1959. Now, to me, it’s just an ugly airport parking garage or an out-of-scale child’s toy.


Speaking of frustration and scale: We are waiting for two and a quarter pounds of chocolate to arrive.

I bought three bars of Theo baking chocolate back in December. Organic, gluten- and dairy-free, Fair Trade, and made in Seattle. Practically local. I meant to make vegan chocolate pots de creme when our sons and their families came for Twelfth Night. I ran out of cooking motivation before I got to the pots, however, and the chocolate remained in my baking cabinet until last week. I used two huge chocolate bars and pecans to make brownies last week. They came out so thick it was hard to get my mouth around them, and dark, very dark. I love dark chocolate. We each had a square the other evening and again yesterday because I put some in the freezer before we could gorge.

There is also a single 4-ounce bar left in the drawer, so I went to the Theo website to order more baking chocolate. It’s sold out. I checked Amazon, but they only have the same high cocoa content in 3-ounce bars. Back to Theo. Sadly, this Seattle company sells their candy cheaper on Amazon than directly from their own website. I ordered a dozen bars last weekend. Yes, I am weak.

Amazon Prime shipped FedEx. You probably see where this is going. Oakland. Seattle to Oakland, so far. Had it shipped USPS, I’d have my chocolate by now. It would have gone Seattle to the regional center in Washington, to Portland, and here. Three days. Instead, it shipped right past Oregon to California. If it were in Oregon by now (630 miles back north), that would not be so bad, but you know FedEx doesn’t work that way.

This is my current entertainment: watching FedEx ship my chocolate around western states. It left Oakland yesterday afternoon. Idaho next? Eastern Oregon? I was actually looking forward to finding it had gone to Wyoming, but this morning it is in Portland. There is still time for the order to wander through a few small towns or head back to Washington state. FedEx can prove that the meandering delivery routes are actually functional. Unlike some of Wright’s designs that were unusable, my chocolate will arrive at my house after it takes a tour, and is functional. I will make more brownies.

I am easily entertained.

ORAL HISTORY

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Jackie Cochran(center) with WASP trainees.” The women in the publicity shots were always young and pretty. Is there any doubt this was meticulously orchestrated? [note: these black & white images are in the public domain.]

I was reading an article in Time magazine about oral histories, how we should all be keeping coronavirus journals because such personal stories add texture to historical accounts. Katherine Sharp Landdeck is the author of The Women with Silver Wings: The Inspiring True Story of the Women Airforce Service Pilots of World War II, and found in her research that the journals of those WASP pilots was essential to making meaning.
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“Harlingen Army Air Field, Texas–Elizabeth L. Remba Gardner of Rockford, Illinois, WASP (Women’s Airforce Service Pilots), Class: 43-W-6, takes a look around before sending her plane streaking down the runway at the Harlingen Army Airfield, Texas, ca. 1930–1975. Note: Almost certainly this dates from 1942–1944, part of project of having women pilots move aircraft on the home front to free up more male pilots for combat duty.”

 

The personal journals that Landdeck researched revealed why women chose to serve and how that service altered their perspectives and life goals. How trivial events became essential and how early concerns faded away. These women risked their lives and 38 of them died, piloting planes to where they were needed.

Publicity shots like the one at left always show pretty faces.

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Assignment #5: weird revision [last]

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This is a black oystercatcher. We hear them south and see a mated pair to the north on walks. This photo was taken at a distance using a zoom.

During April, I gave my students poems. Poetry was one of the fatalities of the misguided school reforms of a couple decades ago which insisted English teachers toss most of our curriculum in for a focus on nonfiction. Don’t get me wrong, I had always included nonfiction in my curriculum, but we all deserve poetry in our lives. We all deserve stories, and we should have respect for fiction, since all the ancient texts, all of scripture everywhere in the world involves the supernatural.

“Actress Amber Tamblyn is a passionate poet, and the above quote ‘eat poetry so that your body is made of it’ reminds me of something she said in an interview. When asked ‘why do we need poetry?’ she said, ‘Because we are the poem. Poetry is the thing you don’t write, it’s the thing you feel, it’s what you kiss, it’s what you sleep in, it’s what you smell, the way in which we need each other, the way in which we understand death without having experienced it.’ ” Continue reading

Assignment #5: color poem

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Three shawls woven on the “Carnival” warp.

This last assignment is poetry. Below are two 20-minute poem prompts. Choose.

IMPORTANT: My 20-minute exercises were inspired by prompts provided in the back of Dorianne Laux and Kim Addonizio’s marvelous craft book, The Poet’s Companion: A Guide to the Pleasures of Writing Poetry (W.W. Norton, 1997). Their original exercises are much better than mine. (You should buy the book.) 

1st option: Metaphor & Simile 

COLOR: What it is & what it’s like

DIRECTIONS:  Write in response to each bulleted item in order:

  • Choose a color such as blue or yellow or red, black or white, violet—whatever. Keep your color in your head for now and don’t write it down on your page.
  • Without including the name of your color, make a list of 6 things that are that color. 
  • Now stretch and add three more things to the list that are the color, then three more, but these should be more complicated things that you have to explain in a phrase—“a four day old bruise” might be yellow, but it’s not the first thing most people think of when they think of that color. (But still don’t say the color.)
  • Complete the sentence: If [someone famous—name them] had a [something—name it] it would be [write your color]. 
  • Complete the sentence: When [name someone] feels [some emotion—name it] in his/her sleep, she/he dreams [describe your color, again without naming it]. 
  • Complete the sentence: When I am [name an emotion] I feel that [describe an object or a place you care about]  is [name your color]. 
  • What does it sound like? “It sounds like…”
  • What does it smell like?
  • What is the texture of your color? 
  • When or how is it terrifying? 
  • When or how is it loving?

Revise, rearrange, & rewrite your list. There’s a poem on Bracken‘s “Hopelings” (sparks of hope in the time of social distancing, which are each lovely in themselves) that might have begun with this assignment called “A Pair of Gloves” by Rebecca Hart Olander. I urge you to click the link and have a quick read.


2nd option: Persona

The River-Merchant’s Wife

        by Ezra Pound

While my hair was still cut straight across my forehead

I played about the front gate, pulling flowers.

You came by on bamboo stilts, playing horse,

You walked about my seat, playing with blue plums.

And we went on living in the village of Chokan:

Two small people, without dislike or suspicion.

At fourteen I married My Lord you.

I never laughed, being bashful.

Lowering my head, I looked at the wall.

Called to, a thousand times, I never looked back.

At fifteen I stopped scowling,

I desired my dust to be mingled with yours

Forever and forever and forever.

Why should I climb the look out?

At sixteen you departed,

You went into far Ku-to-yen, by the river of swirling eddies,

And you have been gone five months.

The monkeys make sorrowful noise overhead.

You dragged your feet when you went out.

By the gate now, the moss is grown, the different mosses,

Too deep to clear them away!

The leaves fall early this autumn, in wind.

The paired butterflies are already yellow with August

Over the grass in the West garden;

They hurt me.  I grow older.

If you are coming down through the narrows of the river Kiang,

Please let me know beforehand,

And I will come out to meet you

   As far as Cho-fu-Sa. 

This poem is an English rewrite of an Italian translation of a Japanese translation of a very famous Chinese poem. Depending on who you talk to, it’s a mediocre translation of a great Chinese poem or a great poem inspired by a conventional Chinese original. I have talked to two Chinese-born American poets who gave me these widely diverse opinions. 

Regardless, this is a persona poem—written by a man from the point of view of a child bride who has grown to love her husband. At the end she promises to come as far as it takes (Cho-fu-Sa might as well be the moon) to reunite with her now beloved husband.

Write a poem in which you briefly describe defining moments in your relationship with another person. You might consider choosing a parent or friend as well as a lover. You might choose, as Pound does, to inhabit the character of someone other than yourself. In any case, these moments you describe should demonstrate an evolution in your relation to that person. Your initial response, how you came to know the person, how you came to care for and miss their absence. Address that person directly as “you” in your poem.

NOTE: At each stage you may improve the poem. Weird revision strategies later this week!

ART STUDENT

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The Brahma Teapot with the lid off and tipped back to show the bull. I made an entire teaset (the goldsmith who commissioned it did not want anything representational) and dozens of mugs in this style back in the day. The clay looks like porcelain, but is only a low-fire white clay. The patterns are underglaze and protected by clear fired glaze.

Back when I was an art student, I thought I might earn money, if not actually a living, from my art. I envisioned a dramatic difference in my life compared to how I was raised.

I was first a Ceramic Art major at the University of Washington. In the clay side of the Fire Arts Building, we were divided into throwers and handbuilders. I was a handbuilder and our work was primarily sculptural art. It was gallery stuff and I did eventually exhibit in galleries and museums (Bellevue Art Museum and Tacoma Art Museum), but selling was what throwers did because they were in to “production.” That is, they made many of a single shape and sold bowls and mugs and so forth. The year of the first University Street Fair in 1970, I had still been in high school, but I sold handbuilt work. I did that again after I had studio space in the Fire Arts Building, in 1972 perhaps. I took over firing the Skutt kilns with everyone’s work, and completed dozens of handbuilt mugs for sale. A year or so later I juried in to the Bellevue Art Fair. I handbuilt entirely different mugs, dozens of mugs in the style above, and I was disappointment when a friend came along with her ceramic-handled flatware and sold more than I did. I mean: crushed with envy, destroyed. Of course, she is still making a living with her art, so she had the better instincts even then.

Long story short? Selling my work became a painful experience. I gave work away. I traded a teaset for a stunning 8″ gold stickpin. I completed two other pieces on commission and was shafted one of those times. I should focus on success, but I wanted then (and still today) to be the best or not at all. Selling, despite my day job in retail, remained a frustrating and unsuccessful experience, a reflection of failure, inadequacy, foolish hope.

But here I am, weaving shawls for sale. A stack of three quilts, unpriced but intended for sale. And my stories too.

I was still almost young when I began writing seriously. I had a fantasy of selling my first novel and making enough money to create that coveted dramatic change in my fortunes. I would quit teaching and write full time. I would pay off my mortgage. I had the same fantasy about the second (also unpublished) novel.

The first time I made actual money from a story was just a couple of years ago with “If It Were True Owls Dream” which was a fantasy story. My first fantasy and first cents-per-word payment. It made me laugh. I did not need the money as I felt I had and no longer had delusions about fame and fortune. By then I was beginning to wonder about how to construct a story where (nearly?) all sources of conflict were absent. And I thought that perhaps I could make some money selling SF/fantasy. Maybe. Or not. Did it matter?

But then Trump and covid19 and rejection from publishers. I send essays off to Dinty Moore and he is kind enough to publish them in the Brevity blog. Mostly recently I wrote an essay about the creativity we will find after much of what we assumed was true about the world, how things work, and ourselves is unraveled. That essay goes live next month. Does anyone think this will be over next month? Convince me.

And then I decided to serialize some of the story that has consumed my writerly imagination for a long time, years. That is why bits of “Butterfly Fontanelle” showed up here. A little at a time goes up as I work through the only draft I could find on this computer. There is a 37k word version someplace, I think. I am working from the fourteen thousand word version. It’s growing a bit. Each day I work on it, I am a little bit surprised at what is happening. I am trusting that by the time I put up the 15th or 18th installment, it will end properly, that it will have gone someplace. I honestly cannot recall how this one ends. Not for sure. Maybe. We’ll all find out together.

And I have retired from teaching. The mortgage is paid. And here is a dramatic change to my life.

assignment #4 revision: Idyll

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This is the first couple of inches of the third shawl on the “Carnival” warp. I completed more than ten inches before the sun went down. I might get all three off the loom tomorrow, surely by Saturday. We went out to collect the mail yesterday, so I might begin another pair of socks.

Hello. Before the revision strategy, a confession. I have been in a bit of a muddle lately. I “turned off” the news two days ago—tossed the email updates unread, and stopped checking news sources online or Johns Hopkins statistics. I think it did me some good to take a break. For example, I noticed I’d miss-numbered the assignments and fixed that. I slept better last night.

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