SKILL SET

Something happened. I’d made a big decision, a big one, without even noticing. I’d made a hard turn into something that felt wonderful, and before I even knew it was happening, it happened!

This isn’t this morning. It isn’t yesterday when we experienced thousands of lightening strikes. This is the beginning of April.

I withdrew submissions and decided I was done with writing contests. I have dozens of stories and poems and essays published in literary journals. Why was I still submitting. (It’s more than a word, submitting.)

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MEAN GREENIES

Yeti, our last dog’s favorite treat was a Greenie, a green starchy chewable bone-shaped object she could chew into bits and swallow in a minute of two. Green meanies are something else and they hurt my hand to hold, as I am in this photo. I wish people would pick them up so I didn’t have to.

I call them “green meanies” because I stepped on one once barefoot. Though I didn’t bleed, it was painful. They are the remains of fireworks of some kind and difficult to spot amongst bits of seaweed on the tideline. I search for them every day, plucked a couple dozen from the sand this morning, and I will still be finding them in January.
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SEVENTY-FOUR

My birthday is two months from next Friday. I will be 74, the age my grandmother and also her elder daughter died. When my mom turned 80, I teased her that she hadn’t expected to live that long. She laughed and said it was true.

Gary and I walked four miles this morning, meandering to Hug Point beach. That parking lot is still closed, which means the beach there has been pretty clean for most of the last year. What you see in my hand are shards of hard plastic from illegal fireworks last week. Yes, the pieces are every bit as sharp as they look. Had I trod on one in the sand, I’d have cut my foot. We mostly ignore the cardboard debris, but we pick up and dispose of the plastic remains and the nasty plugs of spent explosives. We have to be home for the 4th of July to ensure someone doesn’t burn our house down. This year was not the worst, but aerial explosions were right in front of our home and one tourist accidentally sent his rockets not up but across the sand. Fortunately, the tide was well out and nothing hit us, but do we enjoy the toxic and illegal display? Not so much.
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COVERS

cover yourself I’ve got you covered that’s a great cover you’ll need cover

June was an eventful month, and I have a few photos to prove it. My MFA residency happened in Forest Grove and I went by a few times. We both caught a cold (tested) which caused us to miss our dental appointments, but we were healthy for our yearly medical. I am eating better. So is Gary. Both of us lost a couple pounds.

It was hot in Portland, mid-90s while we were there. It was also unusually hot at the beach for a couple days, high 80s. The heat at the beach is troubling. We’ve lived here since 1979, and hitting 80° used to be an extraordinary event. We prefer the cooler temperature. This past week makes me feel things how are changing.

An elk ate apples in the garden across the street and then I ran past it twice yesterday on the beach, a rabbit grazed the yard, and the raven couple have a youngster big as them.

That’s a young bull elk. He probably weighs over 800 pounds. His antlers will continue to grow for two or three months.
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CHOOSING THE BEAR

It is widely reported that given the theoretical choice of meeting a man or a bear in the dark, most women will choose the bear.

Men are justly offended by this report. Women take a breath and nod.

White marble with inlaid semi-precious stone. The romance of the Taj Mahal was ruined for me when I learned that the adored wife it was built to commemorate died in childbirth with her 14th pregnancy. I’ve been pregnant twice, the second unmedicated, and cannot imagine surviving thirteen unmedicated childbirths. Image by Muhammad Mahdi Karim, Stitching assisted by Benh

Last Friday morning, Juneteenth, Ron Charles (former WaPo book editor) wrote about the exploitive relationship of Thomas Jefferson with Sally Hemings, who was 16 years old in Paris and younger than his daughters when he got her pregnant. Yeah. Awful. There is no evidence, no signed contract or other document, that she chose to begin her relationship with the much older Jefferson, but that is the story. [DNA testing of her descendants proves the relationship.] As a free woman, why would anyone have chosen such a relationship?

Was Jefferson the bear?

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BUSY DAYS

June is ridiculously busy, which is not something I can say about most months. Most months my busy is entirely self-inflicted. I read, sew, knit, run, post online. Scrub floors. Gary and I drive to Portland and home from Portland, we walk across the city or walk five miles north on the beach. [We did this recently. Once. Ten miles round trip. Probably not again.]

This is the hollow in sandstone facing the ocean that I call “The Little Altar.” Usually by this time of year there is a circle of green algae on the back. This year, there are three green penguins. Can you see them? Two looking south, a youngster flapping and pointed north? (And yes, there is a Big Altar a few feet north. No penguins.)
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START HERE

My goal was to post once a week on Fridays. I had posted randomly, sometimes a few times in a week, sometimes a few times in a month. It seemed to me that reliability should count for something. Mostly often, I plan ahead; sometimes I write a post at the last minute. Like today.

I can’t tell you how often I have seen bald eagles depicted with their white heads but with brown tails. Adult bald eagles have white tails—clear in this image of one of the local flying away from a carcass on shore. Our eagles rarely kill. They are not ambitious birds that will approach a dying animal, but I’ve seen a single crow drive an eagle away from a dying seagull. We’re particularly fond of crows in our house.
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LOOKING AHEAD

I have a cold and our building fire alarm woke me just after 4am this morning. I would have liked sleeping a bit longer. But since I was up and a neighbor sent me a link to his father’s obituary, I looked up my father’s obituary and found my grandfather’s obit and naturalization paper (I was 8 when he died, which explains why I have so few memories of him) and my great grandmother’s obit from 1918 in the Daily Astorian. He was 75; she was 60. My other great grandmother, Rosetha [Stiles] Pride was 90 when she died. The last time I tried searching for family, I didn’t get far. Now, if I cared to, it seems I could easily trace my entire family. Instead, I’m looking forward.

Brown pelicans have been around but not in numbers at the moment. We saw a thousand gulls onshore a few weeks ago. Yesterday morning the local black oystercatchers brought out their kids, and we saw a tiny shorebird that I couldn’t identify. We’ve seen whimbrels off and on. The bald eagles have flown overhead and a few buzzards down in Falcon Cove the other day. Osprey, Cooper’s hawk, crows, and ravens, finches, robins, starlings, sparrows, the native banded tail pigeons and the invasive Eurasian doves.

It’s hard to write about my recent decision without being depressing or sounding depressed. I’m coming to terms. A much more talented friend declared they were done writing, but they still write. A longtime friend sold their loom. Other friends purchased century plots. Someone moved into a retirement home that also offers assisted living. Planning ahead. My husband and I bought our little condo in a Portland neighborhood where we can walk everywhere, a place with view of sky, an elevator building with no requirement to climb stairs, a place where grocery stores are walking-distance and groceries can be delivered, where local restaurants are across the street and around the corner, and we talk to people in the building. Life goes on; sometimes differently. This is our next life.

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CAT POPULATION

I was reading an upbeat story about a species of dove native to a Pacific island that had become extinct in the wild since 1972 due to human activity and human-introduced species. Cats are often cited as the cause of the birds’ extinction, but the real damage to the birds’ survival had been domestic sheep that destroyed their habitat, explained a scientist with Mexico’s Institute of Ecology who is leading habitat restoration efforts on the island. The cats merely finished off an already decimated population. What is missing may be another cause, too often ignored: human-introduced rats.

“I hear you have an opening?” Leakey invited herself into our home a couple of weeks after Zora Neale Hurston Cougar Cat, “Zora,” died at age 19. It was January and we learned that Leakey with two other cats had been dumped the previous late summer. There had been sitings, but the cats were shy. My theory was that the cats had managed well enough, feasting on wild rodents until winter when the chipmunks were estivating. By the time she showed up at our door, Leakey was starving, weighing less than half what she should. She quickly put on weight with us, but never lost the habit of hunting. Leakey had a small meow and a loud purr and developed a love/hate relationship with our Saluki, Yeti. She was gentle and sweet-tempered but also had the longest and sharpest claws I have ever seen on a domestic cat. Rodents were her prey of choice and like Zora before her, she often ate her catch, but not the rats laid out for Gary to dispose of. [I did try to coax the other abandoned cats to join the family, but no. Only Leakey.]
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CONTROL

On Monday, Gary and I covered at least ten miles. I ran two of them. Wednesday I ran three miles and we walked. I scheduled a 3-mile run for this morning, but Gary wasn’t feeling well so I went out alone. I’d decided to run two miles instead of three. How many did I run? One. I came home and worked for a while, and then I lay down. I felt rotten too. We tested for Covid and that was negative, and we’re feeling better after hot showers.

I generally introduced assignments with a story, so here it is: Before we married, and while we were both students at the University of Washington, Gary and I managed a once-notorious apartment building in the University District known locally as Big Pink. The FBI and the Seattle Police came several times while we managed the building, but the last of the prostitutes had just left before we moved in, and the last drug dealer accidentally set fire to his kitchen soon after, so he was gone soon enough. This was in the early 1970s, and my memory is not entirely reliable, but what I’ll write what is still vivid and accurate.

One of two knobs I put on the bottom drawer of a pie chest we bought out of an old barn—made by someone who did the Bellevue Arts and Crafts Fair beginning in the 1970s. The other has a woman’s face. These porcelain works combined simple shapes with molds of antique pieces and applied bits. Our first grandchild was fascinated as a toddler. I remember the artist’s name as David Keenes, but that seems to be incorrect. I’d hoped that the sugar bowl I have, also made by the same artist, would be stamped with a name. No such luck. It has TAR and KSM. Then I checked the parrot coffee cup I got for Gary back in the day and it is stamped DK.
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