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  • MAGICAL THINKING, pt. 2

    MAGICAL THINKING, pt. 2

    I had an idea of where I was going when I started Part 1, but that got lost. The most magical thing I do is writing—making a reality that hadn’t existed before I created it. I think it through. I trust the process to yield.

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  • MAGICAL THINKING, pt. 1

    MAGICAL THINKING, pt. 1

    Over the years I’ve experienced many unbelievable things. People have said things to me that were so shocking, I didn’t know how to respond. Then I did. I’ve given up all hope. Surprise! Things fall into place.

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  • CATCHING UP

    CATCHING UP

    A lot. My injured foot is still a problem. No publisher for my novel. We’ve canceled an anniversary vacation. A neighbor is not doing well. And I am assured by a former student that, “There is hope in this world, ya know. And it’s okay to get depressed; it just means you’re paying attention. And…

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  • TESTING TESTING

    TESTING TESTING

    Jakey Lebwohl, Emma Park, and Zach Rausch on the Substack* After Babel published a meticulous documentation of an education system that is failing too many students. All students had been improving in pretty much every area, and then about 2010, that improvement mostly stopped. The drop in skills such as reading and math is particularly…

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  • KIDS THESE DAYS

    KIDS THESE DAYS

    “Sit still,” the trainee told him several times with increasing frustration. “Sit still!” When he finally did sit in his chair, the little boy completed the test. He scored so very badly. The trainer took her student aside. “Try again but let him move around this time.” Do I need to tell how much better…

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  • SKEPTICISM

    SKEPTICISM

    Examples of “evidence” I discount:• Your boyfriend’s uncle’s friend survived a house invasion only because he kept a loaded gun under his pillow.* You saw a YouTube video/Snapchat/Tweet/X post/Facebook story that proves there is a cabal of dems holding torturous events at the local pizza palace.• You found the photo that proves how people in…

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  • GAUGUIN

    GAUGUIN

    I understand from reviews that at least some readers and professional reviewers are relieved that Sue Prideaux in her new biography, Wild Thing, exonerates Gauguin’s egregious sexual relationships with girls and women because the times were different. How nice. [The French, among others, have long struggled to recognize sexual exploitation of female children, not to mention…

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  • REMIND ME

    REMIND ME

    The last word. You write. You submit. You wait. You are rejected. Only that first verb matters. Remember that. Keep going. You write. You submit. You wait for rejection. It is tempting to believe in failure, that rejection is deserved, that it is right. Every creative person knows this process of making and reworking and…

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  • FOOT by FOOT

    FOOT by FOOT

    Everything is blooming here, other than things that are already nearly done blooming. In the front yard the wild roses and rhododendron and irises are done, but Pink Grootendorst is still setting new buds and so is my favorite double white rugosa. The honeysuckle and salal are still in flower, and the ceanothus is covered…

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  • SHOOT

    SHOOT

    In 1972, I drove across the country with my grandfather’s third wife Genevieve to a sheep farm in Kansas. I had never been over the Rockies before that. Vietnam was at war, I learned to spin wool that summer, and when I got back Gary and I moved in together on the 4th of July.…

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